There are so many feelings that describe what being a mom is really like. Truthfully, I could never comprehend the intensity of motherhood before I had kids. If you’re reading this and are pregnant with your first, just know that everything everyone says is true, but you won’t really understand how real it all is until your baby is here. I know that probably won’t make a lot of sense, but I promise it will once your baby arrives.
We spent the last week traveling to see family, and unfortunately we were all sick. My daughter was up multiple times each night, and during one of these midnight rocking sessions, I started thinking about what intense, raw feelings motherhood encompasses. I tried to sum it up in 5 phrases that ring very very true for me:
Five Truths that Sum Up Motherhood:
If you don’t have kids yet, I’m sorry but you don’t understand. Before I had kids, I thought I understood what was coming. NOPE! The exhaustion is just unreal. I’m honestly a little worried about having a newborn again; those first few months of the newborn stage are such a blur to me sometimes because I was in such a fog of not having slept! Sleep does get better of course, but it doesn’t mean you’re not still sleep deprived in some way or another!
I worry about everything. EVERYTHING! The ridiculous things that cross my mind of potential things to worry about is insane. I’d love to meet a mother who isn’t worried constantly, because I truly want to know your secrets. I realize that 90% of the things I worry about won’t ever happen, but it doesn’t mean I don’t still worry about them.
You’re a Hot Mess.
I’m super envious of all the Instagram moms I see that look gorgeous, have this beautiful hair and makeup, are all looking perfectly slim and beautiful in nice outfits with a couple kids attached to them. This has never, nor ever will be me. The other day when we were flying back from Pennsylvania, I had banana all over my outfit. ALL OVER. Nothing is sacred here anymore. Food is on everything. I can’t even count the number of food or item particles that have ended up in my hair. My fashion sense is just ridiculous, but even if it wasn’t, I couldn’t keep a pretty outfit free of toddler messes. I wish I could be like those Instagram moms, but I’m just not. And I’m ok with it! Mostly. I still wish I had perfect skin that only needed a tinted moisturizer, or a cute little body that looked great in just jeans and a chunky sweater. Or hair that held a curl…I’d take that too.
I feel like my patience levels have been drastically altered since my first pregnancy. I honestly can’t remember how patient I was before I ever got pregnant, but now I can tell you I’m way more annoyed than I ever remember being. Not at my kid, but just random things in general, and mostly I’m annoyed at myself. And maybe some of this is due to being pregnant again, but it’s the little things. For example, I wanted to buy a gift card for someone at Target. I went to Target, got a bunch of stuff and came out with NO gift card, and didn’t remember until I got home. WHY!? Why can’t I remember ONE THING?! Because #mombrain. It’s real.
You love like you’ve never loved before.
This is the piece of the puzzle that (for me) makes motherhood the best thing in the entire world. You can’t even imagine the kind of love you have for your baby until s/he arrives. It’s unbelievable. My heart literally aches with love for my daughter, and even my unborn son that I haven’t met yet. I was never someone who always wanted to be a mom, yet when I think of the things that define me now, the only thing I hold on solidly to is being a mother. It feels like it’s the only thing I never knew I wanted, until she was here. The love you have for your children is something so special, it will always make every single hard day worth it. If you’re pregnant or waiting for kids of your own, get ready to be amazed at this incredible love that you never knew you even had in you.
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